observing.

I sat outside in my yard yesterday, writing in one of my notebooks. I wrote, and wrote... things were seemingly heavy and too dark for such a bright beautiful summer day. I turned the page and took a detour, it was more meant to be a mental note for myself but I might as well put it on here to show I'm still alive. This is what leapt out of my little old green bic pen:

My head is loud. My mind - Clusterfucked. I suddenly allow myself to mute the chaos. It's beautiful. The birds. They sing. The leaves. They dance. Tap dancing amongst eachother creating the faintest noise. A lawn mower from afar. Loudly proclaiming to us all that it is out enjoying this beautiful summer day. This fly. Monotomous buzzing. Initially annoying. Suddenly the buzzing morphs into an alarm. The buzzing. Reminding me. I am breathing. Living. Basking in the beauty of this earth. Swish. Swish. I have company. My Dog. She's moved off of my sheet. Swish. Swish. She teeters on her back. Corners of her mouth plummet down to each ear. Pink Pudgy belly marinates in the seductive warmth. Silence. There's a calm. The redundant sound of traffic resembles the soothing melodies of the oceans retracting tides. Memories. Memories of my Hawaii life.

I ended where I did because my family came home from church and I had to watch over my nephew while the others went to two other church functions. Although I could've gone on. I think it stops right where it should've, because I was no longer absorbing my surroundings; the traffic had started to lead me into a train of though.

anyway, thats that.