when the top is the best

So, after spending the last few days shoving cake, brownies, cookies, and ice cream down my throat- more than once a day, I decided my late night snack tonight would be something more "healthy". So I snatch a banana from my parents' fruit bowl, strip it of it's peel, and slather a generous amount of peanut butter on top of the shaft of the banana- yeah i just said that, now lets continue. - I take a bite and don't experience the ultimate blissful goodness of the peanut butter to it's maximum level. And you know why?? Because for some odd reason, "they" all taught us from the begining of our crafty little lives to do such the thing: Toppings and spreads, stay on top as you take each bite.

Why?!?!

Why on earth would we make the most scrumptious part away from our tastebuds? Hmm? Ever wondered that yourself? Well anyhow, I turned that banana right around, and vowed to myself never to stray my tastebuds from ultimate pleasure. Ever, ever again.

cupcakes, brownies, pizza, everything will now be inserted and consumed upside down, which will eternally turn my frown; upside down.

observing.

I sat outside in my yard yesterday, writing in one of my notebooks. I wrote, and wrote... things were seemingly heavy and too dark for such a bright beautiful summer day. I turned the page and took a detour, it was more meant to be a mental note for myself but I might as well put it on here to show I'm still alive. This is what leapt out of my little old green bic pen:

My head is loud. My mind - Clusterfucked. I suddenly allow myself to mute the chaos. It's beautiful. The birds. They sing. The leaves. They dance. Tap dancing amongst eachother creating the faintest noise. A lawn mower from afar. Loudly proclaiming to us all that it is out enjoying this beautiful summer day. This fly. Monotomous buzzing. Initially annoying. Suddenly the buzzing morphs into an alarm. The buzzing. Reminding me. I am breathing. Living. Basking in the beauty of this earth. Swish. Swish. I have company. My Dog. She's moved off of my sheet. Swish. Swish. She teeters on her back. Corners of her mouth plummet down to each ear. Pink Pudgy belly marinates in the seductive warmth. Silence. There's a calm. The redundant sound of traffic resembles the soothing melodies of the oceans retracting tides. Memories. Memories of my Hawaii life.

I ended where I did because my family came home from church and I had to watch over my nephew while the others went to two other church functions. Although I could've gone on. I think it stops right where it should've, because I was no longer absorbing my surroundings; the traffic had started to lead me into a train of though.

anyway, thats that.

me

out of all photos collecting in my photo library, I feel like this is pretty much me.


photo by Liliana Felleti

Home

I'm home.
Away from all the smut, smoke and mirrors of hollywood. I've got about a week left here. Hoping to return next week with a whole lot more of me than I arrived here with yesterday.

crusty old blog.

i almost want to dry my hands of this crusty old blog and start over.

Or do I want to even start over? I don't know. Too tired to think.

disorderly sleeping.

I've suffered from one sleep disorder to the next for about 8 years or so. Until recently, I've mostly always claimed victim to insomnia. Nowadays, I tend to fall asleep whenever I sit down, lay down, anytime, anywhere. I can't get through 15 minutes of a television show, or movie... After I finish a meal, I'm out like a light. I'd like to say I've transitioned from an insomniac to a narcoleptic. (Laughing, crying, talking in my sleep included)



After seeing these videos, its good to know; I'm not alone in the "disfunctional sleeper" department.

Also...

What better reason (other than family and best friends) to make a trip home to the great Northwest? 3 days of Music, Camping, Comedians, and friends! yeayuh.

and it won't be blistering hot like Coachella..Or Lollapolooza for that matter.


SASQUATCH (at The Gorge)

THE LINE UP

Saturday, May 23th
Kings of Leon / Yeah Yeah Yeahs / The Decemberists / Animal Collective / Bon Iver / Devotchka / M. Ward / Doves / Sun Kil Moon / The Gaslight Anthem / King Khan & The Shrines / Ra Ra Riot / Shearwater / Passion Pit / Mt. St. Helens Vietnam Band / Vince Mira / Blind Pilot / Owl City / Arthur & Yu / Dent May & His Magnificent Ukulele / Death Vessel / Hockey / People's Republic of Komedy / James Pants / Todd Barry / Tim and Eric / Crystal Castles

Sunday, May 24th
Jane's Addiction / Nine Inch Nails / TV On The Radio / The Murder City Devils / of Montreal / The Avett Brothers / Calexico / M83 / The Airborne Toxic Event / The Walkmen / The Wrens / St. Vincent / The Dodos / John Vanderslice / The Submarines / Viva Voce / The Builders And The Butchers / AA Bondy / Fences / Point Juncture, WA / The Red Wine Boys / Zach Galifianakis / Deadmau5 / Natalie Portman's Shaved Head / People's Republic of Komedy

Monday, May 25th
Ben Harper and Relentless7 / Erykah Badu / Silversun Pickups / Fleet Foxes / Gogol Bordello / Santigold / Grizzly Bear / Explosions In The Sky / Girl Talk / Blitzen Trapper / The Knux / Monotonix / Bishop Allen / Black Moth Super Rainbow / Beach House / Mugison / The Dutchess And The Duke / School Of Seven Bells / Horse Feathers / The Pica Beats / Loch Lomond / People's Republic of Komedy / Tobacco / Chromeo / God's Pottery / Demetri Martin / BLK JKS / The Whitest Kids U' Know


Go to http://www.sasquatchfestival.com for more details.